Yes, you are so right hy. It’s not user-friendly at all! will somebody please tell me how to go about javascript in WordPress? aku nak mati dah.
Have been ‘missing’ from this world for quite some times as i had been living a very-routine 9-5 life. Yes, i have weekends to write and blog but i was just plain lazy and didn’t know what to write though. So here i am again, writing to you and sharing the same old , maybe more open and more matured random thoughts. I took very long to figure out how to put the usual ads, widget, and etc etc. But in the end i give up, just be a ‘plain jane’ in this blogging world. Don’t bother if it’s massive or ‘canggih’ (high-tech), just a piece of my thought to share, not other stuffs. 
Past
I have been a bum since Chinese New Year. Reason is my contract has ended with MAS and i was having a very high hope to go back to resume my service with them if they would call me few months later. So i thought i should just wait. I would say during these times, God has been really GREAT to me. He provides(a part time job in STM), He comforts(when i am down), He sees me through. I was pretty lost for not able to work as what i used to work, flying around and enjoying the privilege of traveling. I couldn’t really accept the fact that i am not working and counting a bit on family because they helped me out. I felt useless. While i was praying for directions, God opened doors for me. 
He showed me His plan and it is also my desires: Living simple. I almost wanted to quit my job to take up Nursing course so i could serve the community and living simple, not in the world of glamorous and stuffs. Because i had a tendency to stray away when i don’t discipline myself and would give into temptations. Temptations like, spending too much, living too comfortably, all-about-me lifestyle, etc. I easily forget times, because i would always say ‘no time’ therefore means no time for people although i love people. But because of so much things going around in my life when i was working back then, i tend to overlook the little precious time with loved ones.
God put me through this way for not working full time for about 6 months plus, His plan indeed proven He had not forsaken me at all. I’ve learned to look at things from different perspective; having good quality of time with people; live really simple as i have not been shopping since Chinese New Years. *Applause* ;D I should not even been complaining why God didn’t give me a great job for these 6 months ,because i wouldn’t be learning to live like this and understand how to live within means.
Love
God showed me love. He showed me how to love people around me more, and unconditionally. As much as i hated to treat them nice when i was feeling moody, but somehow i managed to break that wall to show a bit of my love to them, i hope they felt it. And also at the right timing, He sent some one into my life not only love him dearly but to learn to love myself too. It’s very true that when they said, ‘To be loved, one must learn to love themselves first. Otherwise, there’s no love in you.’ But i think if you love God with all your heart, naturally you’ll love anyone else without any barrier because in God alone we found love, and of all things, He is the God of love. He loves us unconditionally, He cares for us so much that He sacrifice His beloved Son to save all of us.
It’s never easy to love some one. As in whole heartedly; giving all the best you could; constantly thinking on his/her behalf; being selfless and able to sacrifice from time to time… To know how to love a person, it’s simple. Just look at Jesus, God himself. How He had always love us even we turn our back and deny His love, how much compassion He has for all of us; His kindness and faithfulness. Or take a closer look, look at our mother. Mother’s love is always unconditional no matter how bad we treated them by the way we talk or things we said. We know that this would hurt them but we are still doing it because we didn’t choose to control ourselves. We always think it’s okay if we patch things up after that, no it’s not when you think you shouldn’t have said such things and you still made the choice for doing so. How about if we have that compassionate love and live with it then learn to control our emotions/temper so we won’t hurt anyone unintentionally especially to those closest to us.
Relationship
Relationship is connecting with a person and there you build the bridge so the connection is always flowing. It’s not easy to build a smooth relationship with a person, asit’s always on a rough ride. All because we are human. Each of us are created to be different such as with different characteristics, thinkings, and behaviours…Just by thinking of the closest ones with us, do we have a really good relationship with each of them? Or just a couple of them? Or just by one? Or none? Why is that so? Aren’t they the closest people around you?
Yes, we can’t get along with everybody because we will not accept one’s weakness and simply did not like his/her characters. Have we really tried to even accept a person for who they are? Instead of looking at how great we are that we overlook our own weakness too? Being such a stubborn cow and refuse to change oneself or accepting a person, that’s when a relationship is failing. Sisters don’t get along; friends ended up as enemies; boyfriends and girlfriends breaking up…
No matter what you will try you very best to build that foundation of the relationship right? That’s why it’s important…you won’t like it when you can’t communicate with people right? You won’t like it when you wanted to talk with some one when the other party block you right from there. Yes, communication is important in a relationship. You need to express your thoughts and concerns toward someone, you can’t just hide it within you as the other person will not know, there miscommunication exist in relationship and the bridges start to break.
Giving and receiving in any relationship is important. Giving all your loves, cares, concerns and receiving them all from the other person. Does it really matter? Why can’t we just give and give until we can’t give anymore. What’s the point giving when you’re not receiving? Because by receiving only you can CONTINUE to give. So that’s the point of by not just giving but receiving from the other person as well. In case you are not sure by what it means of the giving and receiving, it means you…(i’m feeling blank and i couldn’t think of anything to say. I’m sorry)-_-
God always warn us to have good relationship with Him, and also with people. Failing to do so, we will tend to be very distance from God or from one another. Jesus was sent down to glorify His name and so we are here to do the same like Jesus did. Jesus always had very close relationship with God by spending time to talk with Him and listen to God. He’s our heavenly Father, a Father who fills us with love, joy and peace all the time because He has a beautiful relationship with us. And He wants us to have that with Him. If we learn to build a good foundation of relationship with God alone, naturally we ought to build that up with people too, don’t we?
All right, i think i have pour out too much of my thought for this post since the last one. I’m sorry if you are having watering eyes (not tears of course) because you’ve been reading this post ith such small fonts. Opppsie 
Anyway, I have learned so much since i have been ‘on the ground’. I find this is a blessing God has given me, maybe sometimes you should slow down and take some time to look at your surroundings and ponder upon them. Stop walking too fast because the rest might not keep up with your pace. If you find this post a bit contradicting,i’m sorry but it’s just a piece of my random thought.
